Excessive Poverty Creates Narcissism in Society


There is a generation gap between people who comes from extreme poverty, and people who comes from extreme wealth. Narcissism from my point of perspective could be coming from a pattern of genetical behaviour of poverty passed down from generation to generation. Amount of hard work, effort, slavery, the projection of lack, the injustice action by the wealthy or those in power. The poor generation could have been carrying long term conditions and traits passed down from generation to generation, of feeling fear, lack, discourage, mental and emotional slavery. There is a karmic pattern between generations of poverty and generations of wealth. There will be karmic destruction when the clarity ensues that the family tree of poverty and wealth comes together to heal past bondage of slavery and abuse.

To do this the generation of poverty needs to have clarity in understanding the programmed behaviour they carry from generation to generation passed down to their children’s as traits and behaviour that diminish and detriment their family values. Both family tree needs to learn the extreme duality and these family tree dynamic teaches the souls, lessons on extreme light and extreme dark.

The family tree that carries genetical poverty mindset, needs to learn to hold on to their personal power and stop giving to the detriment of selves, and the family tree that carries genetical wealth mindset needs to learn to stop taking to the detriment of others. The karmic pattern is to teach extremity and to earn the wisdom of balance and harmony.

How does the wealthy genetic line abuse the poverty genetic line. Narcissism in this perspective creates people pleasing creatures that has lost touch with one’s soul. The wealth abuses the poor people’s ability to be sincere, authentic, honest, and carry individuality. The poor is abused to portray a false personality in order to gain opportunity by the wealthy people.

These perspectives are used only as a mere example, and does not apply to all poor or wealthy families. We are taking context in healing the negative side of humanity to bring enlightenment and awareness.

Since the wealthy holds the abundance and power, the wealthy generation that lacks compassion and consciousness, they use severe tactics to feed their ego, their shadow side that diminishes, the poverty generation’s dignity, self-worth, self-esteem, personal power, everything good about a soul. Wealth creates a programming or conditioning that makes an individual that lack’s consciousness, to become less virtuous and more easier to be controlled with fear propaganda.

Applying this to the current modern civilization, the generation gap between poverty and wealthy people, there are a deep barrier with material values and spiritual values. The poverty generation is bombarded with fear propaganda in order to sustain their status as slave-labours.

Forcing the poor generation to focus on survival is what ensures this generation to be stuck on materialistic values and to remove them from becoming spiritual and enlightened as well as sovereign and free.

Programming fear into the poverty generation is like herding sheeps into the farm. The Fear propaganda in the media, in the news and government policies are what ensures humans or generation of poverty stays in the box. So that it is easy to control the mass population.

3% of the World’s wealth is with People who have colonized the world through violence, through manipulation tactics, through wars, and through slavery and brute force.

If narcissism begins with extreme poverty, with the wealth generation abusing the dignity of the poor people. You may ask the question, who taught the wealth how to be narcissistic? The answer is their family upbringing. Materialistic values are not absolutely fully spiritual. Competing for material values are not basic spiritual values. The people in wealthy generation that abuses poor generation through slavery, undignified exchanges, manipulation tactics and cheating the poor, learn this trick or tactic from the values they were brought up as children’s. Their parents who are not spiritually aligned or carry spiritual values of respecting the child, honouring dignity, allowing compassion to grow in the children’s. These children’s in wealthy generation repeats the genetical behaviour the parent’s pass down to them as genetical trait.

If we look deeper into history into an unknown time source. When there is an epidemic, in a situation where the strongest are the winners. People fight each other for land, for crops, for gold, silver and who is the first to colonise outside land. Like how Captain Columbus “found” America, or how Penang, in Southeast Asia is “found” by Captain Francis Light.

The economy for money, they create supply and demand. They create illusion of abundance through money as values. People can still barter or exchange even till the time of now. Bartering is a universal trade.

Money is just the middle-man between everyone, it does simplify the process of exchange. But the currency between all countries drop and rise with each control of the people of wealth generation controlling the hierarchy of the world in a pyramid caste.

When there is an economic crash, the people of the wealth generation controls the flow of money and abuse the system to provide themselves with instant slavery tools. There will be more people in workforce working for measly nothings, Straining people’s soul to give away their personal power, faith, love, compassion, and transforming innocent souls to become brutes, violent, narcissists, cheaters, manipulators, liars, and programming them to be modern slaves filled with negativity.

There will be less light in the world, when the wealthiest generation abuses the flow of abundance for the poverty generation. The pyramid exists to serve only the wealthy generation. The wealthy generation do not respect humanity, nor do they carry value, compassion or integrity to do what is just. To believe in manipulation, narcissism, or negativity is to release constantly your personal power to decide and choose differently.

If this life is a game with freewill, your stand to refuse to play the game offered by the wealthy generation through exploiting vulnerabiltiies of female, male, childrens, and programming fear, distorting sexuality, abusing the crops and food with GMO’s, toxicating the water, fracking the earth, killing and hunting animals for sport, If you decide to refuse and stand your grand and not choose this game. The wealthiest generation cannot exist.

The wealthiest generation is a leech to suck the love out of human soul’s so that they may be sloths, greedy, pride, gluttony, and the rest of the 7 sins.

Narcissism happens to create ignorance and darkness in the world. Narcissism is what keeps the pyramid to exist. People battling over each other’s personal power, rather than coming from a place of spiritual understanding, love, compassion and kindness, these traits are what will heal the narcissism in the world. Foreward, peace will ensue in this world.

When the people of poverty generation, practices the value of spirituality, they begin to be able to make means of income and life support through miracle incidences based on their spiritual light of attracting opportunity, faith, magnet of abundance and love.

We can anchor spiritual values into earth, so that there is no such thing as generation of poverty or generation of wealth, We only have generation of enough and abundance. Where everything is available to anybody and peace is what roams the entire human hearts around the world. Equality exist as a tool of harmony and spiritual evolution.

People are stuck in combat, because they are projected material values as tool and form of survival and thrive. They lack compassion because it is normal for them to chase, to abuse, to lie, to cheat in life. They lack integrity, principal, spiritual vision and connection. Inner peace do not exist in a narcissist’s mind. They feel lack within themselves and seek to fulfill external fulfillment based on the projections of the wealthy generation. Such as through media, through lifestyle suggestions of abundance. The wealthy generation owns public media, the broadcasting tool to program and suggests poverty generation on what is right and what is associated with wealth, happiness, definition of being loved. At the same time, the broadcasting material influences the 7 sins within a human shadow and darkness, such as greed, lust, gluttony, sloth, pride, ego, envy or jealousy. Abusing female sexuality to profit from the lust of men, to profiting from lifestyle to create competition between latest fashion, latest gadgets, latest decorations, latest hotspots, and travel locations. People want to be belonged and in the zone and crowd, without realising that they can make a definition of what they choose rather than being suggested by the ratrace pack programmed by the wealthy generation that owns all the public media broadcasts.

The ideas in the narcissists’ mind is detrimental to themselves and their surrounding. It is what keeps the modern slavery to continue. The tool for healing to assist a narcissist’s are the tool of spiritual connection.

Most times, deep suffering and deep fear to the point and brink of near death experience will turn the narcissist’s shift to the ethereal realm, astral plane and emotional and mental plane and they start to become aware of their life that no longer works to fulfill their soul. They have been programmed to follow the rat race and losing each fragment of their soul on the way until they run on empty vessels, mindless drones of human zombies.

If you are suffering in your life, trying to find a way into peace, joy and happiness. Watch and look at how you lead your life everyday. Do you feed your soul, or do you feed the illusion of carefree living? Do you protect your soul, or do you risk it for people’s acceptance and conditional love. Are you authentic or are you playing a dumb character in someone else’s life for their happiness and ego? Are you leading your life based on your highest joy, passion and bliss? Or are you following other people’s footsteps, mind control, suggestions and influence.

Narcissisms do not hold an individuality, they copy, imitate, they follow other people’s desires, other people’s souls. They cannot maintain true happiness because their happiness is based on other people’s projections of what is right for them.

The wealthiest generation controls the projection of what is right for the poor generation based on their ability to keep the poor generation as a generation of slaves. To be the worker in the beehives rather than each be queen of their own hives, royalty of their own lives, they become slaves for the queens. Mindless drones.

If you understand how your life is, and what you have gone through, that made you feel lost, and insecure, not good enough, not fulfilled, connecting to your divine spirituality is what will save and rescue you from the modern slavery, the poor generation from being repeated. When you change your soul, admit the power of your freewill to refuse to play the game that the wealth generation projects as an illusion to make you fall for their trap, and fear propaganda. When you choose consciously how your life want to be, to be royalty of your own hive. To be kings and queens of your own life. You begin to connect to spiritual consciousness that makes everything available for you, the deeper your connection the stronger your physical power will be. Spirit is what creates this world. Do not abuse your connection to spirit.

Knowledge in the hands of man creates power. The knowledge in the world is restricted hence there is ability to herd mass amounts of human’s into modern slavery. Be conscious of your personal power, your connection to spirit, your connection to eternal consciousness, love, and soul. These are the tools that can create the life you truly desire from your freewill in this earth.

There is no need to believe in the illusion of fear, projection of lack, chasing after abundance, when the answer is to connect to spiritual consciousness and increase your soul value internally so that you do not have to carry on the generation of poverty in your family generation. This increase the ability for human’s to create a shift of karmic wealth in the world and fuels the energy to raise ascension of humanity into love and peace.

The stronger your connection to spirit, the stronger your ability is to manifest the life you desire. For this, you will need to learn how to harness energy inside your chakra’s the energy point of your body, cleanse and remove energies of other people that are leeching onto your soul and spirit power. Self-awareness and a journey of soul transformation will help you become more authentic, individualistic, creative and a visionary of your own making.

This is a call to suggest and request that we work for each other’s soul expansion. Use this information wisely to learn to engage in universal harmony so that we no longer need to be in a system of hierarchy or pyramid. That we live in peace and equality and stop the abuse amongst humanity.

Let’s stop narcissism, stop illusion of fear, and begin the connection to spirituality and to create peace in each other’s world in authenticity.

With best salutations,
Meredith Mynrose.
Universal Healer, Life Coach & Peace Visionary


Practice Asking Without Being Reprimanded – A Trait of Child Abusee


One of the basic abusive trauma a child endures during their early childhood is the Art of Not Asking. Children’s are treated in a manner that makes them feel unworthy or not valuable when their request for attention, needs, desires are retorted with a strong rejection, shame, blaming for irresponsibility, guilt-riding quests.

Childrens that has been abused, are taught to keep their needs last, and that their request for attention, help, assistance is harshly denied, ignored or aggressively scolded. Parents or family member’s who are impatient, expresses their adult anger towards the child, forcing the child to be independent at a young age. The abusee begins to live in silent, adapting to all circumstances, constantly moving out of the way hence not to be a nuisance, a problem or bring trouble to the family members or parents. They learn to be practically invisible in order to not be the center of attack, emotional explosions, rejection, shame, guilt-tripping, blaming games, and many other thing that they grow up around that makes them feel each movement, motion, thought, intention, emotion that create, begins to be hazardous. Every step, every cause, everywhere they go, they begin to feel like they are under attack. The family which is hostile, dictates, rules, controls each of their motion, emotion, action, thoughts, intentions, on the surface and under the surface. The family member’s will make assumptions from lies to disempower the children with non-truths so the children have no mind of their own, no independent feelings or individuality. All decisions and choices the child makes, is scrutinised, attacked and put down. They are not good in anything. Nothing they do is ever good enough. Even if they did a great job at something, they will be mocked, made fun of and humiliated.

It is hard to be an abused child in a hostile environment where everything the child does, gets very dampened, their soul’s slowly squeezed out of air so that it fuels the laughter of hatred by their family member, sibling or parents. Sadly, the abused child lives in a family filled with hostility, no empathy, non-compassionate values, fueled with hatred, competition, ego and stepping over each other for power battle.

It takes a lot to understand a grown adult that needs to suck the life out of an innocent child has a lot of retardancy in themselves in order to abuse a child. It takes a lot of idiocracy, insecurity, immaturity and emotional retardedness to understand the whole dynamic family tree that surrounds an abused child.

A child that has been abused under the tutelage, parenting of an idiotic parental figure filled with hate, judgment, fear, intolerance and insecurity has been set to become a victim for the rest of their life until they wake up and fight back for their basic human rights.

It is easy for an abused child to have a low set of self-esteem, signs of depression, loss of ability to speech, no eye contacts, small voice, suicidal thoughts and even constant thought of fleeing or running away.

The parent’s that come together to produce a child, and then abused it in hostility, creating a dangerous environment with perhaps drug, pedophiles, ignorance and physical abuse to psychological abuse. The parents will carry the same history of similar type of parenting. Each individual parent that acknowledges hostility or abuse as normal has experienced the same similar situation as a child themselves. Only this generation, children’s are able to open their eyes and speak up, they can wake up to realise that they are not choosing violence over love and compassion to the family members. But they will also not keep silent to allow the abuse to continue.

Having been in a hostile situation, an abusee will have a hard time adapting and staying invisible, they also may wish they were never been born and could had even heard the same death threats repeated over and over by their parent and family members. Once a child has been listening to death threat’s over and over repeatedly all their life, they may just take the plunge and kill themselves by suicide, knowing that the verbal abuse had led them to take action to end their life from the hostility the parents, family member of sibling may have imposed onto them, without mercy, compassion or empathy. Based on their lack of judgement, emotional intelligence and shallow depth of understanding human love.

Now as a grown adult, you may have chanced over this blogpost trying to understand more about your past and the problem you may endure now. Trouble speaking up, trouble asking for your value and worth, and the trouble that besets you from happiest achievements.

You may be scared to ask for a raise, to ask for a new opportunity, to ask for assistance, help or support from your surrounding. You may still be carrying the weight of the world around you feeling responsible for all the emotional surrounding, the feelings of other people, feeling if you don’t service them, you are to be blamed for every fault that the people around you endure.

First things first, nobody is responsible for anybody else. If you are a child abusee, you had been duped, lied to and taken advantage of. People who are emotionally responsible, mature and intelligent do not treat other people with hostility. The rude behaviour, reflects on their personal values and belief. It defines who they are, so never take anything from other people personally. How people react to you does not define who you are. It reflects on their personal character, personal behaviour, personal understanding and personal ignorance.

Your hostile family members are not wise enough to acknowledge their behaviour or being self-aware that they lack qualities matching to empathy, intelligence, patience and understanding.

As in previous posts I have mentioned, as a child abusee, you grow up having problems in adult life, having trouble earning your worth, demanding your true value, asking for opportunities or going for your desires. Having doubt, fear, inconsistent motivation to pursue your dreams. All of this stemmed from your unsupportive childhood. In your childhood you have been taught, educated, programmed and brainwash to act, behave, think, feel a certain way that benefits your surrounding rather than yourself. You were forced to remove your personal interests and personal power in order to serve the people in your surrounding. You grow up and nothing may have changed from the abused family experienced, to the abused relationship, to the abused circle of friends, to the abused circle of network and career. The cycle repeats itself until you change your lanes.

Changing the lanes of your life means to change who you are, how you behave, how you choose to respond, where you stand your ground, how you refuse firmly to deny what no longer helps you to grow and be in your road to joy and happiness.

Learning to ask without being scolded, learning to stand your ground when you know you have the right to ask without being treated like a child or a nuisance. Not taking other people’s insecurity of you having courage to ask for your value. Having bravery to demand your worth. These are all character attributes you must learn to develop as an interpersonal skill set in life.

If people want something from you of value, you have to ask yourself how do I grow from this exchange or service. Am I in service to self, or am I in service to others and at the same time detrimenting to my personal soul health. Many narcissists will employ dupe manipulation to make you give something of your value, to make you help them, work for them, give them your time, attention, skill, expertise. Ask yourself, why must I sacrifice and supposedly “help” this people when I do not feel joy, I do not feel appreciated, I do not feel valued, I do not feel respected or even I do not feel great about it.

Never extend your value out of yourself in order to be of service to others. You cannot give something that makes you feel lack afterwards. You can only give something that makes you grow. Learn to differentiate and separate giving from manipulation, or giving from sincerity. Most of the time, the child abusee gives help, shows care, feels responsible to fill a role of pulling all the weight because they are manipulated to give their power away, and within time, they begin to do it without much word said.

Learning to stop giving your power away helps you to begin knowing your value. Understanding your capability by making observation of how other people in their life lives, how other people is being treated in the same exact position as you do, and seeing a healthy response of communication and interaction assists oneseld to build a healthy interpersonal skills in the character and behaviour department.

To learn to ask, you will have to keep your personal power in tact. To remember your principals and values. To acknowledge your belief that you are good enough, deserving enough, and fully enough to ask something from someone, or some people. Please make a good judgment of your life experience before asking to be the head of the company when you only know how to do sales. Its not a long shot but you do have to prove that you are that good to demand the be head of the company where you may be working at.

Remember that as a child, whenever you want to ask for assistance, support, help or opportunity, you have trauma triggers of being harassed, intimidated, guilt-tripped, bullied, humiliated, shamed, blamed and many other rest of negative reactions. You have to realise that your surrounding was not a conducive environment that has tolerance or intelligence. Your environment is hostile and filled with fear and anger. It is not the same as what may be as in presence now. And if it does, you have to learn to build your inter-personal skills to start nurturing your own soul and inner child. So that you can begin to take care of yourself and learn to defend your values, stand firm on  your principals and speak your truth.

When you are being reprimanded, guilted, blamed, shamed for asking something you desire, first of all do not take it personally. You have to detach your observation and reflect all what has been said back to the person rejecting you. Find out what is their intention of reprimanding your ability to ask. You could ask the boss for a raise, you could ask a family member for assistance, you could ask a friend to help you with moving house or driving you somewhere, every little one of this situation that has a negative reaction holds strong identity showcasing the rejector rather than the person asking. Many of this situation involves one person who is hostile, angry, insecure and fearful. It is a power battle when this happens.

You as an adult growing up, wanting to learn and understand how to build positive living and healthy personality and positive character in life; you have ability to step up into the maturity podium and be more aware then the ignorant rejecting individuals who reprimands you asking for assistance, help, support, or a desire. Nobody has the ultimate power to give you what you want. There will be many more individuals who are able to provide you an opportunity that you desire. Wether it be a simple help, or a grand opportunity. So try and look it in a way that benefits you in the long term. One rejection from an insecure, violent, rude, abrasive and obscene individual holds no power over the rest of the human population in the world. The people who rejected you in the past or incoming, cannot hold your power down to be who you are, They do not have the power to define your capability, no matter if they are an expert, or certified, or even holy. Everyone has a freewill to create a life they desire based on their consciousness, clarity, personal power and freewill. You can create your life and keep moving on to the people who can support you, help you, assists you and give you the opportunity you desire. Do not take anything personally as in the previous time in your childhood. The traumatic moments have to be healed so you no longer feel triggered in fear when you desire to ask the world for something. To have hope to deserve love, to deserve goodness and to deserve what life has best to offer.

Practice asking without being reprimanded, if you receive a rejection, remember your principals, values, beliefs and proof that you deserve and earn the right to ask. Ask from faith, Ask from love, Ask from passion, Ask from joy, Ask from happiness, Ask from ability that you know you have every right to deserve everything you require from the Universe. Don’t take any rejections personally, it is only the Universe informing you, this person was not the right path for you to be with. Perhaps the Universe was saving your ass when the person refuse and rejects you. Take that as a silver lining and blessing in disguise that better even much better assistance, help, support, grandest opportunity is on its way!

Take care beloved readers, and if you wish for a personal coaching session, email us for a booking appointment.

Loving salutations,
Meredith Mynrose
Universal Healer, Life Coach & Peace Visionary


The Suppressed Childhood Trauma Malaysian Endure


Dearly beloved readers and Malaysians,

In my five years of understanding my journey as a healer, a life coach and understanding my own journey to healing. It has come to my attention that many individuals here in Malaysia were sharing to me their memories of painful experiences that were never addressed openly until they came for healing with me.

My passion and as a career, I have naturally found myself in this path to heal and guide people’s hearts towards love and nurturing their lives and personal happiness. My experiences of making observations about the pattern that keeps rising is that many fear and problems many of us endure is because of the conditioning, programming, fear and control that was forced to be set as valuable beliefs into these Malaysian’s childhood.

There was a strong violent punishment that was enforced onto children’s when they seem to do something that is wrong or at fault. I have no capability to express what parents may choose to direct authority over their children as I am not a parent. However I do carry wisdom of love in my heart and consciousness to know that there is a better way to resolve a misunderstanding rather than a violent punishment that keeps a growing child silent when being punished, abused, intimidated or harmed.

When childrens are forced to accept punishment, violent angry beatings, forced to look down in shame, forced to be silent when receiving verbal abuse, punished for disrespecting, enduring great distress as a child with emotional and psychological abuse, all of these experiences are kept bottled up with anger, fear, confusion, as a permanent behaviour.

The childrens ability to defend themselves, to understand their rights as human individuals, to realise their value and self worth, to understand why were they abused in the first place, they become a perfect candidate for bullies outside of family to prey on them. As their behaviour to release their personal power, dignity, self-esteem, personal rights has been already corrupted in the family environment.

Fast-forward 20 or 40 years ahead with a couple or three generations of “civilisation”, you will have what we see in the current social exchanges we may have now. For example, workplace bullies, or sociopaths will always be attracted towards the person who plays the role of the weakling or victim. The child that has grown into an adult will continuously attract the relationship magnanimous towards their best selves. They carry a emotional and mental radar detector to play the role of a victim and attract people who are abusive, disrespectful, rude and controlling even if they consciously dislike it, they have no idea that the values, beliefs, and behaviours that has been forced upon them in their childhood, is what is carrying their character and personality to attract the same dynamic relationship in school, at work, in social surroundings and romantic relationships.

No matter what they do, until they reflect the values, beliefs, projections that was enforced onto them as childrens, the way they were raised, how it affects and form their behaviour, no matter what they do, only when they become self-aware of their actions, thoughts, feelings, intentions and behaviour, only then they can start to shift and change from becoming a constant victim towards their surrounding and changing their role to become more stable and powerful in defending their rights and walking away from abusive surrounding and abusive people, colleagues, friends, partners and husband or wives.

Working in your interpersonal skills, behaviour, heart intelligence, discovering your soul through self-enlightenment assists any person who has had a childhood trauma to obtain a better sense of self.

Are you Abused as a Child?
Do you have a Childhood Trauma you need to address?
Do you have relapsed memories?
Do you have fear triggers?
Do you get panic attacks and high anxiety disorders?
Do you have depression?
Do you feel suicidal?
Do you feel lack of self-worth and self esteem?
Do you feel powerless to change?

There are telltale signs if you have a life issue at hand at an age as an adult, knowing that you keep running away from problems rather than facing them, skipping jobs, not having committed relationships with partners, giving up on things that makes you excited, dropping out of schools, colleges or universities. Leaving the country and going on a world-wind travel and not having a committed career and purpose in life.

You may still be living with a parent, feeling responsible for their wellbeing and care and feel constraint to be an individual of your desire with the programming set in stone since childhood. You are looking out the window knowing you deserve a better life, but because you have to make a choice of pleasing the people in your surrounding you sacrifice your soul, happiness and heart. You feel that maybe after everyone around you is happy you are able to then be happy too. But everytime you take a step towards your happiness, people call you as being selfish, your family members bring an urgent problem that you must commit to as a responsible son or daughter. There is always something stopping you from taking step to achieve your personal fulfillment. You have to begin to realise that this behaviour you carry as an interpersonal skill this inner character you actively use to care and treat yourself is what will always make you give yourself second-hand attention and giving people in your surrounding your best. This action is called serving others before serving self and will; no matter how many positive books or suggestions given to you by your surrounding, this behavior and action will make you lose respect over yourself, and lose insight over the importance of your own personal life.

You will continuously be a slave rider for other people’s emotional happiness, people’s comfortability, and people’s agenda. You may say that I am wrong, that you enjoy all this and you feel good doing all this for other people. And yet you may express you feel invalidated, you feel unappreciated, you feel undervalued, you feel a sense of lack and still looking for the meaning of life. You can see the contradictory meaning you carry in your life, with what you assume as good in your mind and the feeling of bad or emptiness in your heart.

You have been programmed to put other people first and sacrifice your personal sense of self in order to provide for the wellbeing of your surrounding. People pleasing is part of a trait an abused child carry in order to be accepted, valued and appreciated. This people pleasing is a trait that is always based on terms and conditions of the judgemental people around you, family, siblings, parents, friends, peers, colleagues and boss.

A lot of people who have endured childhood trauma has inability to have a back bone and stand for what they believe in, and to protect their personal interests. Their refusal lacks firm grounding and being aware of their principals, values and belief with ability to reflect on their personal interests. As a people pleaser who is used to be people pleasing, they exclude personal interests in their life and hence whenever they say No or Refuse, they have problem maintaining confidence in refusing or denying or rejecting people’s demand of them. This is one of the trigger a child of abuse may be exposed to, they are unable to refuse, reject, or deny demands from people who are not respectful of their feelings and personal stand. A concern individual could read this behaviour they carry but an oblivious opportunists will constantly keep demanding more from this people pleaser. You, if a people pleaser may carry guilt, shame, lack of self-respect and self-beating for not standing up even for yourself. These all takes a toll on your self esteem and caved in personal confidence.

To begin starting fresh in life, you find yourself here wanting to know wether or not it is possible for you to be happy, to achieve independence and happiness in life. To heal childhood trauma and be a confident person at work, in university, in the home, and being free in expressing your values, beliefs, principals in life. As well as begin to use your voice to express your own thoughts and feelings that may have been put into silent in a lot of encounters feeling lack of self-worth to push or share your ideas in groups of friends, at work, in your surrounding or people whom you cherish or value.

As a child, you may have had bad experience, traumatic incidences, things that happened you could never tell anyone, you didn’t want to bear that responsibility of pain you carry towards other people, you didn’t want to burden other people with your story, thinking that it is not okay to share this experience, that you are solely responsible for all the bad things that happened to you as a child. Speaking to your own parents to explain your childhood experiences is shown as weakness rather than strength. Your parents may ignore, tell you to forget it and move on, not validating your experience as a child under their care. Your friends may tell you to keep your chin up and focus on the pleasant things in life. You carry a big painful rock in your chest waiting to be expressed to the people who care and yet can barely be authentic and true to many or most people. You feel judged, bad and seen as a negative person when you decide to share a story to another person around you.

You see, you too are an individual, and basically you do not need other people to share this to except to spend time to begin exploring the experience on your own and ask yourself the questions, why, how, and what can I do. Sooner or later in life you could be doing well in life and people and friends who care about you will be listening your life story without judgment or depricating your life experiences. For now, it falls down on your lap, this responsibility to check the list of your past experiences and resolve your tangled mind and emotions about the traumatic childhood you experienced as a child.

The first thing you can do is list down bad experiences you endure as a child if you remember them, then try to solve these feelings through observation, acknowleding all the emotions link to it. Being aware of beliefs, thoughts or values you carry in your mind. Kind of challenge and oppose that mental values you with the emotional experience and truth you carry in your heart. Most of the time the mental perception you carry in your mind is based on a lie and it hurts your emotions and feelings and you are stuck in a conflict of mind or heart values. As long as you condition the state of your mind with the values of your heart, you are not able to validate all your true emotions. In fact you will force your mind to tell your heart to feel differently because you taught yourself people in your surrounding says I must feel this way and listen to them, or the suggestions in your mind, which is first and foremost a violation of your personal right to feel. The people in your surrounding, childhood, peers, they are suggesting you the idea on how to feel when offered a thought or demanding you certain values from your part. This is called manipulation.

A lot of time manipulation happens when people suggest or request certain things from you and offers influence of emotional feeling for you. “You should feel good I am offering you this opportunity that I am not offering to the other friends” or “You should be happy you are my favourite child and you get to help me clean the house and do the dishes” or  “You should be happy I am spending time with you all the time and bring you to work with me and you helping me with typing documents”. You should be grateful you have a grandmother and helping her do gardening and yardwork at her home in the weekends”

Manipulation happens with certain individuals suggesting you to be emotionally positive when they request you your effort, attention, companion, and forcing you to believe that your negative emotions is not validated, or true. They put their hands in your heart to force your emotion into positive feeling so that they can gain something from you. To do that, they put lies and deceit in your mind so that they can control your behaviour.

It is time to be more authentic than that, the feeling of being manipulated by your childhood experiences and realise that if your childhood family care about your wellbeing, they will not need to put suggestions or force you to feel a certain way the way you are not naturally feeling.

You have been avoiding and mentally evading your childhood feelings with terms, conditions, rules of societal conduct, and family upbringings that you are not emotionally healthy and able to take care and nurture your right to be who you are. If you cannot be true to yourself, there is no way other people can be true to you. Begin this journey of self liberation to open the cage of your wild heart and express all the things you have suppressed in your childhood trauma. The heavy things could be the sexual abuse, the molestations, the violent verbal assault and death threats some traditional egoistical parent use on their childrens during angry rages that debiliates your self-esteem and self-worth of not feeling right to live.

Your life is not own by anyone, Life is independent you breathe without string attached to people’s demands. Every life is sacred and beautiful. Its time to learn that your life is in your hands and how conscious and aware you are to be who you choose to be is important and can change the next path you take from now on in your life.

If you are 16 years old, realising you are googling this keywords “childhood” “trauma” “malaysia” and find this blogpost. I am happy to do sessions to help you heal that. Anybody under the age of 21 looking for healing, I will take that opportunity to help you. If you wish to send me questions and help me build this blog to help raise awareness of emotional freedom from trauma in Malaysia, please do so. If you are a career woman or man looking for assistance and can afford to book an appointment or session with me, contact me to begin a coaching and healing program specifically for you.

Your choice and decision to begin a new chapter and even a completely new book begins with your self-awareness to change what no longer serves your highest purpose. Most of the time it is the mental programming and behaviour programming in your mind and body. It includes the freedom of your heart and honesty of living. To be constantly honest with yourself until you reach a level of transparency and able to know when people in your surrounding are not being honest, it is empowering your gut feeling and intuition when you are honest with your own emotions and know yourself better than anyone’s suggestion of your feelings.

The most violating part of a human right is that you are unable to express yourself and your voice without being influenced by people who disrespect your emotional state and instead doing the thinking and feeling for you. They push your soul, take your body, force you to think their way and force you to feel their way, and end up using, abusing, taking advantage, hurting you and endangering your health, psychology, emotions and mental rights as a human individual. Learn about personal development so that you are not a prey in the world full of predators and begin to attract strong character and individual who respects, honours, cherish, values you as part of the love sphere on earth. Where everyone has equal rights, exchanges everything based on love and independence and learn to love with a sword of truth at all times.

Thank you for reading my blog, I hope that this post assists you in opening the wound of the past, and empower you to take a stand in your beating heart and personal happiness, that your life is important and it matters. You can heal and grow stronger and beautiful from the thunderstorms of your cold pasts. You as an individual have the power to choose and liberate yourself from influences that doesn’t grow your soul into glory and grace.

My name is Meredith Mynrose, I am a Universal Healer, Life Coach and Peace Visionary.

Sending blessings and love,
Meredith Mynrose


Monitoring Workplace Bullies – Charming Sociopaths (Kuala Lumpur Edition)


Dear beloved readers and Malaysians,

Since it has come to my attention that many people have issues at work when it comes to working with people who do not pull their weight, or carry any transparency, honesty or respect. It is hard for you to find peace around people who are manipulative. Especially if you are used to being disrespected, keeping quiet, letting pass people’s manipulative behaviour towards you.

Workplace bullies carry negative energy of desiring to overpower their surrounding due to their needy characteristic to feed their ego so that they may be look up to, appreciated and valued. The fact is, bullies or charming individuals rally support from their team or colleagues and peers to take advantage of a individual who is allowing the bully, the intimidation, the scrutiny of controlling each of their behaviour pass under the radar.

Awareness of your peer’s behaviour is important if you wish to be alert of your personal boundaries being disrespected. Workplace bullies can intimidate their peers through subtle ways of rudeness, criticisms, put-downs and creating dramatic situation that makes the superior blames the innocent peers.

Some of you who may be reading this are empaths, highly sensitive or very compassionate individuals who do not have the same values with the chameleon sociopaths who are charming and nice on the surface and that carries an ugly values in the core.

You may have had trouble with workplace bullies. Who turns the authority against you, and you don’t know why the authority, your boss or senior manager is now against you. The culprit is the behind-the-scenes situation that happens without your awareness.

You can first be very confused on why your senior are singling you out and shaming you in front of your other peers for your presumably inadequate work. Things do not make sense to you on why some peers and your senior at your career-place is reacting to you more negatively rather than usual. You may not know what you did wrong, you may not understand what is going on. Well its true that we can validate your experience as abnormal and something is amiss.

You did not know why people are reacting to you negatively. You do not know who has been talking about you behind your back. You were not aware of the lies or gossip or “office politics” that may go around behind your radar and awareness.

When you don’t know something that has been spread about you, it is common for people to react negatively towards you when they hear a negative insight pointed towards you.

The first method is to address the weirdness around you. To clear the air and be extremely transparent about your feelings and acknowledging the behaviour of other people towards you. Humans have flaws, and nobody is perfect, everyone does their very best to be what seems to be a good choice in life. So the people , your peers who may have been influenced to go against you may have done so due to their lack of awareness of themselves and their character of integrity.

Open a line of communication with the people who are treating you with biased judgement that makes you feel something is amiss. Ask them what did you do that made them begin to react or behave differently than before. Ask them why they change their behaviour towards you. Express that you would like to know and understand so that you don’t jump to conclusion and make judgements about them. The goal here is to create peace in your connection and relationship at work.

If your honesty is taken with an agressive tone, or defensive behaviour, you too need to learn to engage in a manner where people cannot feel inferior. It takes practice to be sincere and honest and express with pleasant feeling that you care and wish to understand them and their behaviour. If the reaction you receive by opening this communication is bad, agressive, and the person who you wish to communicate doesn’t want to communicate with you and began to dismiss you rudely. You should understand that you must not take it personally. People have different personalities and if you cannot have harmony or peace in your surrounding at work, you should inform your superior that it is not a peaceful and inviting space for you to feel comfortable to focus at your task at hand. Althought you practice kindness and respect, you should not tolerate disrespect from people or rudeness. If the reply you receive is harsh and non-understanding, you do not need to apologize or excuse wanting to reach a state of peace between your connection with your peers.
It is easy to influence people who are easily whispered with power of suggestive opinions and remarks. Especially from a charming sociopath who knows how to pull the emotional strings of this easily influenced people. People of strong character would not be easily influenced. They carry integrity as their fore. If your boss, authority or superior had a strong character, then they would be able to understand a charming sociopath’s agenda. But if your boss, authority or superior had a weaker character that is easily influenced, especially after having a lone time with the social chameleon, your superior may have taken sides, instead of being able to judge fairly and listening to both sides of the story and making an investigation about accusation, criticisms. A boss or superior who has no strong character with fair leadership qualities is not able to make fair judgement.

If you have had trouble with knowing where you draw the line of disrespect, your personal boundaries or values, you have to check within your inner characteristic that has been brought up by your childhood surrounding. Do you feel weak to speak up your concerns and express your rights. Do you feel tired to explain yourself and defend yourself. Did you even try to at first?

The charming sociopath will always have an upperhand when you allow them to act in a behaviour that diminishes your integrity towards yourself. If you don’t speak up and put a stop to their harassment, it will keep lingering on until there is a fuse blow inside your emotions or mind to make you really piss off with them. Hence why are you using your patience to put up with disrespect, misbehaviour, harassment, dishonesty, manipulation in the first place.

Are you ? Are you putting up and having patience towards disrespect thinking that you are better person for having patience? That somehow this is a virtue? No you must have gotten it wrong, putting up with disrespect is not virtue, putting up with disrespect or rudeness is lowering your self-worth and personal values and it affects your vote of personal confidence, self esteem and self belief. Overall your voice will start to shrink and the sociopath in your office will feed their ego and pride of being able to bully, scrutinised, affect and impact you to behave like a weakling, with no voice, and no strong principal, defensive standing.

What happens in the workplace with people reacting, responding, behaving to each other has very close ties to how they carry themselves in the hierarchy at home and the value you are imposed with. People with compassion, heart centered, kind and focus too much on how their affected emotionally and did not realise the people around them, the sociopath pulls the strings of their emotion to play their game of abuse and bullying.

It could be the same enigma at their home with the same values and the same roles. People carry their roles from one place to the other, not being aware of it. It works both ways. Some people who are a self-sacrificial individual tend to give in to other people’s quirks and demands, so when they go to office at work, they began to behave the same way. Our behaviour can only be interpreted and acted out by each individual who carry awareness.

People like charming sociopaths could be used to manipulating people to complete their agenda. Their personality shifts with each individual they meet and come across. This could be at home, with friends, with work colleagues and their superior. They are not authentic and they are the gaslighter of the space, pushing buttons, creating drama, making people quarrel against each other. They are the culprit and most of the time, everyone would never think to blame them, because they have been putting the seeds of innocence charming individual all this time, at the same time, projecting and pointing finger to the individual in the group that have been putting up with their abuse, rudeness, disrespect and manipualtion and deceit all the while. Does this sound familiar to you ?

If you find yourself in this situation, I wish to recommend you to oversee your behaviour, character, personality and how it serves you to defend yourself in situations where you feel victimised by your surrounding. Your personal values and perspectives may override the clarity of the bigger picture and you may choose to begin self-awareness and awareness of your surrounding more in-depth. Rather than reading the surface, go deeper in the intentions and motives why people behave or speak in a certain way towards you.

Even more, observe your reactions, response towards people and look at the way you carry yourself. Is it with self-respect or dignity, or do you feel like you cannot be yourself and you feel negative around certain people constricting the way you express yourself. Learn to be honest and true with your own feelings and character so when you begin to behave out of character, you know that it is a projection coming from people in your surrounding. Your awareness will help you to start taking responsibility to your personal power and from then onwards it is harder to manipulate you to be guilted, shamed, victimised by your peers and surrounding in the office.

I recommend for you to book a session with me to help you deal with your current dilemma in the office and learning how to handle your personal energy and maintaining awareness of yourself. Then we may go into the root of each seed that denotes how you naturally behave around demanding surrounding and we will ask question on how do you choose to be better next time. We find the problem, We search the first seed of infliction, We get to the root problem, We heal it with clarity, understanding, and change of perspectives towards positive soul growth.

It is time to empower yourself as a strong individual if you wish to be ambitious, achieve success, have great achievements. You have to learn to have strong character, individualship, leadership and principals. Email me to find out about the Coaching Programs.

Blessings and Loving salutations,
Meredith Mynrose


What is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) for Malaysians Awareness


Hi dear beloveds and Malaysians,

I am a Universal Healer, Life Coach and a Peace Visionary. I would like to share with you what is PTSD.

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is a condition that happened to somebody who has endured extreme stress, extreme traumatic experience after a certain event, situation or experience in their life. This can be from being abused as a child, sexually assaulted, physically harmed, threatened in a domestic violence, assaulted or intimidated by peers, colleagues, friends or strangers that may harmed your psychological health, personal self-worth and self-esteem and confidence and sense of pride and dignity. Besides that, post traumatic stress disorder can be found in army, soldier, veterans who were at war and came back shell shocked. Shell shocked meaning they have the inability to feel themselves anymore. Nor are they able to feel feelings or personal thoughts and personal emotions as well as personal desires. The traumatic effects the person’s ability and identity of self.

In order to help you understand more about PTSD, I would like to share with you a story about my life. I was abused as a child, sexually, physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.

As a child I was sexually abused as a toddler by a ex-paternal father figure and ex-elder sibling.
As a child I was also abused physically by an ex-parental father figure, elder brother, and ex-maternal figure mother.
As a child I was emotionally and verbally abused by ex-maternal mother figure, two elder sibling, ex-sister and ex-brother.
As a child I was spiritually abused by using religion to make me obey egoistical command by my ex-paternal parents.
As a child I was mentally abused by my ex-family members blaming me for every emotions they feel as a fault of mine, hence people pleasing is a bad attribute that was instill hardcore into me to create self-sacrificial personality as a method to bring peace in the surrounding and making me lose my self-worth, personal happiness and become a slave to the surroundings abuse and demands.

With all this abuse, comes conditionings and character building. As an adult with an engrained abused character, when confronted with abuse from peers, society, friends and authorities, it was hard to defend personal rights, dignity and values. Simply put, it was hard to protect myself around abusive people who are seeking to manipulate me sexually, materialistically, emotionally and skills. It was hard to look at them in the eye and say no, when we were programmed to cower in fear, and release our personal power to the abuser. If you are an adult and you had a history of child abuse, and meeting many people who takes advantage of you and having narcissists or office bully in your surroundings at work, there is a way to heal your soul and create peace in your heart and peace in your surrounding. It is about making the right choices by changing how we perceive our past experiences.

With these abuses I had endured as a child, there were many triggers that made me blackout, panic, having high anxiety attack, feeling of lack of self-esteem and self-worth. I was scared of men throughout all my life, feeling afraid to touch or be touched by male family members throughout childhood to teenage years, I was attracting sexual attention almost everywhere I go and I was body-shamed by my ex-maternal mother figure all my childhood and teenagehood. Putting me into a religious boarding school was to reduce my self-importance and I was abused into religious abuse by the right of parental authority using religion as a punishment tool taking it into their hands to abuse my entire childhood into a state of disgrace and shamed.

Many of my childhood has consisted numerous death threats by my ex-maternal mother figure whenever I did not and was not able to please her with my attitude or behaviour, I was to behave more obedient, more respectful, more understanding and listening as a child, as a child, there was no space for me to voice my feelings, and my thoughts towards how I was being treated by all members of the ex-family. To them, I was a target to express all the negative feelings or thoughts they may have and I was to be blamed for all the wrongs in their life and used as a punching bag for all their problems. I was thrown things, I was belted and caned for not listening to their angry expressions, I was intimidated and threatened by loud noises in my surrounding like cabinet doors slamming loudly, kicking the door of my room, throwing bottles or objects from above me to hit my head as I watch tv as a teenager.

Carrying myself through secondary (high) school was hard because, I could not trust anybody to share my experience. Even when I went to the school counselor, he was not able to help me because he was not certified at that time and after I finished high school and went to visit the teachers, the counselor was talking about my privacy and share them with the religious teacher and some other teachers there. The religious teacher there was hinting and joking making fun of issues that I have only discussed with the counselor at the school.

When you have gone through intense traumatic experience at the hand of someone in your surrounding, there is a trigger that can create panic attacks or anxiety in your life. It may be hard for you to feel safe when you decide to try something new, taking risks is hard because the fear trigger is lodged in your subconscious mind to make you be constantly in a state of fear.

Fear programming from Traumatic experience such as Child Abuse, Sexual Abuse, or Religious abuse is defining your personality as a growing individual if this happened during the time you were parented by the authority or guardian of your life.

Learning about narcissists, sociopaths or psychopaths helps you to define the character of the people around you and may enable you to protect yourself from the manipulation of your adult life in public surrounding.

If you were abuse as a child, sexually assaulted, religiously abused, the abuser could be a narcissists, sociopath or psychopath.

What is the difference between the three terms, narcissists are people who are highly manipulative, deceptive, selfish, arrogant and self-centered. Sociopath is all that and they do not care when people get hurt when they are pursuing their desires. Psychopath is all of that and feels excited when they get to inflict pain and they feel satisfied to punish or has his revenge. All of them does gaslighting, it means gossipping or having split personality to pretend to be very nice but having malicious vindictive motives.

What are symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder?

If you have freshly been abused, it is panic attacks, high anxiety, having to relive the past in the present moment by having flashbacks, remembering the past, having nightmares, trouble sleeping restfully, having physical reactions when the memory in triggered such as sweating palm, hard of breathing, strong pounding heart, uncontrollable arousal of emotions such as anger, fear, grief, feeling tense such as muscles cramp, clenching jaw, a fisting hand, a protective motion or even the physical feeling of stunned, numb, shock, inability to move, inability to shake it off.

When I say freshly been abused, it is within the 1st year of the abuse itself.

How does PTSD affect your Personal Behaviour and Character?

You will start to avoid places that reminds you of that particular event, you will no longer do what you use to love doing when you remember the event that took place, for example if you enjoy painting and the abuser breaks your canvas and throw your brush and paints on the ground. You are scared to pick it up and you are intimidated with physical abuse if you do pick it up. Or reading a book and your book is torn into pieces, it makes you scared to read books again. Or whatever you love doing and you show compassion towards it, at that time you will be attacked and the abuser will program fear between you and what you share love to. It constricts you from feeling good about yourself and choosing to do things that you love. The abuser stops you from making personal decision that makes you feel happy. They control your emotional independence to feel good.

Your behaviour will change towards being more lack of enthusiasm, you will feel more numb, lifeless, you don’t expect to have any good moments or memories arriving, you reject opportunities that may make you feel happy due to your abusive programming to not allow you to accept the love in your surrounding that comes from other points or channels from the abuser. You are being programmed to be immune to the opportunity of happiness and you are programmed to perceive fear in all directions of life hence your ability to have hopes and dreams to accomplish goals are hindered, and trampled, you have a hard time wanting to have a desire, because of the abuse that made you feel all your desires are unworthy, and not of value, and having desires makes you be targeted of an attack. So your desires are diminished because the abuse programmed you to fear wanting anything that is of good personal value to you. You will behave like you are imprisoned with a perception in life that makes you feel constrained, not being able to make decisions that make you feel good, because you are traumatised of the past event that programs you not to go for your desires, or else you will be abused, hit, assaulted or hurt. In order not to be hurt, you had to let go of your personal desires, interests, passion. This is torture to your soul. You have to realise this to wake up from the deep fear slumber you have deeply sucked into a quicksand of darkness.

What is the long term effect for PTSD if it is not treated?

Triggers, you will start to avoid being triggered. Isolations, you start to choose who you befriend and not able to open yourself up to the world. Bursts of anger and violence towards self-destruction or physical destructions. You will have a uncontrollable anger outbursts and you will be in a spiral of self-destructions with being suicidal, addictive to cigarettes or drugs, or becoming an alchoholic, even towards addiction to pornography to avoid reality. You will start to attract bad crowds that only like you for certain reasons, like status, wealth, if you are not wealthy, you will be attracted to be with broken people, drug addicts, other people who portray the same anger, violence, or become highly materialistic to showcase different part of your personality to cover your insecurities.  You have short attention span, because fear is in the corners of every part of your desires or self worth. You start letting go of personal self care, you will start to lose attention to your surrounding and inability to maintain cleanliness or upkeeping the surrounding’s environment. You lost attention to care for your personal hygiene or self appearances. You will pick up negative behaviours and get attracted to practicing sloth, lust, greed, grief, lies, envious, pride. You may also have the opposite effect, see in which way the trauma influenced you. You may be extremely humble towards humility that makes you feel safe around homeless poor people, you may be so generous that you give everything away, you may feel so supportive that you can only see the best in people, but not the best in yourself, you may be so emotionless that you don’t know who you are, what you want, how you feel, what you think, and you wait for other people to direct your thoughts, to direct your feelings, to direct your identity to be who you should be. You become a slave to your surrounding having no independent thoughts, no independent emotions, no personal identity, because the trauma has left you with no soul connection to your own identity or self, that is why in the old times during war, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder was first called Shell Shock. It is due to the only thing that is left on you is your skin, there is nobody home in your soul, heart or mind. You become a human robot or a slave to your abuser, to heed each of the commands made by the abuser, your spouse, your parental figure, your siblings or family members, friends, peers, colleagues, etcs. If you were not abuse by people you may know and may have been sexually assaulted by a stranger, this could also happen to you, because you are left scared and your soul consciousness, personal identity left your skin human body to protect yourself against the pain and horrific events. This makes you disassociate yourself from the event and when confronted with similar situation, you will be triggered and diassociate to the point where you may blackout, faint, or go into a hysteric mode (crying, losing consciousness, violently fighting and being angry).

What can you do if you have PTSD?

You have to first acknowledge your self and the feelings you have been avoiding. Fear is removing you from feeling yourself and your truthful experience. Trigger is a memory relapse that makes you disassociate your feelings from reaching into you, in order not to be hurt, you push away the feeling by feeling anxiety, panic, diassociating the situation, fainting or blacking out, even isolating yourself from the place or people. It is hard to remember the past and to remember your memories that is painful, but this is a process that helps you to regain your mental awareness and clarity in your life. Think of it like each traumatic event in your life that is rejected, forgotten or pushed away and left a trigger in your mental consciousness, or emotional body, it takes a percentage of your soul identity or personal freedom away. Claiming your right to feel again, to not disintegrate your soul from the experience rather than feeling it fully and be aware of the experience as a detached memory helps you to stay more present in your body during the triggers and release the fear programming from controlling your life and identity and behaviour.

The main factor of being affected by PTSD is that there is a seed of fear limiting your perspective and actions to be who you are. This constrictions chains you to behave a specific way in order for the abuser to get what they want from you, respect, power, pride, total control, or taking advantage of  your sexual body parts for their lust. Depends on what type of abuser they are, they may feel more confident and fuel their ego when they get you to feel scared of them.

One of the ways that helps is to know that all that happened in the past is a fear programming, and manipulation to serve a purpose from a selfish individual who has no care for your personal rights, personal values, dignity and self respect. They aim to abuse you by forcing you into giving into their commands, breaking your boundaries, disrespecting your values, breaking your will power.

If you have endured PTSD and now wanting to learn how to build your life again, there is a way out. There is a way towards feeling better again. One fact you should remind yourself is that, the abuse changes how you perceive life and how you behave for their benefit and their gain, to make you lose all personal power, personal desires, personal identity and personal gains. You have to remind yourself that having been abused or assaulted in the past is because these individuals are weak people who have no integrity or morale to have behave in a respectable way. In no way you should feel bad, guilty or ashamed of what had happened towards you, it may have seem that they punish you and blame you for many things, but be aware of the common sense of the biggers perspective. Violence is a not an answer towards any situation. Everyone has freewill and ability to communicate. People who uses violence in order to torture, punish or educate are not civilised or compassionate. If you were abused religiously, then the religion is manipulated for the ego of the abuser feeling authority using religion as a punishing tool.

These are all my experiences and insights, I am not a professional certified counsellor, but I am a person with many experience, with many answers, with many solutions. I am gifted to see beyond the veil, I am able to understand situations beyond the surface, I am a Universal Healer, Life Coach and a Peace Visionary. This is my passion, to heal broken souls and thriving them into life again. I wish to help you grow as I have helped my ownself to grow free from the abuse, ptsd from the past.

If you are an adult that keeps meeting people who abuses you, I remind you to learn about narcissists and how to deal with them. I advise you to build new character and behaviour for yourself, so that you can defend yourself, and stand on your ground when you are being triggered, assaulted or intimidated by abusive, narcissists, sociopathic individuals in your surrounding. Learn your values, and know when you can walk away, you are worthy of a safe space at all times. You are worthy of being treated with respect, compassion and kindness. You don’t deserve any less than that, and you need to realise your dignity is in your hands, and you can feel good about who you are without being harmed by anything in life.

I send my love to you, I send angels that may protect you while you may heal from PTSD and that you find a way into becoming a wonderful human individual with a great soul and a sweet spirit inside your heart.

Sending you blessings and love,
Meredith Mynrose
Peace Visionary