I Know Who I Am, and I Know Who I Am Not

Hey earth lovers, Its the 1st of January here. {I finished writing this on the 5th Jan😍} So I wish you all a Good and Memorable Sweet New Year. With new year coming we always tell ourselves small little promises and grand new plans. Promising of changes, promising of improving your life, promising yourself of the things you will achieve in the new year. I don’t want to ruin the parade of people who have made New Year Resolutions, so I will just share an interpretation I pick up over shifting to a new calendar year, 365 days from the year before.

I think some people may agree that growing up means growing older, but recently growing older gave me a new perspective. Growing older means your priorities when you finish high school, finish university, maintaining a job or career, and growing older when you are connected to another person as a family, as a friend, as a co-worker, as a service provider, as a citizen. I realise everyone of us lead different lives. We connect with different people. And people as seasons, come and go and some of them stay for life or just for a while. But most definitely they leave a mark on our life, wether good or bad.

What I am learning to grasp understanding how life works and my minuscule effort to find stability, prosperity, be a good economic participant in my country and planet. Is that your plans in life is futile. But it does not mean its wasted or useless. It just means the universe keep twisting the plot of your life to bring you what you didn’t think you would experience. But to experience it had shaped and moulded your entire being in this life on earth.

The bad moments in your life was a tough life lessons that prepared you to acknowledge lessons you have learn in your past to curb you from bringing the mistakes into your future.

Try thinking about it, if you have gone through so much life mistakes in the past few years as I have, and less we judge ourselves the better. This mistakes are what made us wiser. And making mistakes and trusting someone or a situation isn’t wrong. I repeat making mistakes doesn’t make you a bad human or a wrong in any way. So don’t beat yourself up for past failures, or putting trust in people. You can still take responsibility of your life even when other people did not take responsibility for not meeting your expectations and making false promises to you. You don’t have to look at other people failing you. You look at your next step of action afterwards. How you brush yourself off and pick yourself up in life and moving on from the past events good or bad.

In certain times the struggle to move on is real. I promise you I have personally felt that. So in this article I want to share with you how shifting your perspective is really darn important to bring yourself into a healthier mindset and holding on to hope, positive belief, and being an optimist even if the past may have haunting lingering vibes, the attention you clear out and hold in replace of the past can help you feel enormously better and to a point you become productive and able to utilise more of your day making new moments, new memories and new experiences with new people, new places and new everything.

Base on my last article about Is Your Mind Your Enemy or Is Your Mind Your Cheerleader? I talk about how the voices in your mind is influenced by your environment or social circle, which maybe supportive or filled with criticisms. In this article I want to share a perspective and an energy where I also stumble across while having a conversation with the universe and my higher self.

One thing that allowed myself to be set free from other people’s definition, expectation, presumption, assumption that held me back for so long. We all have issues. *laughs*. Is that people reveal about themselves the way they treat and speak to you, and it is up to you to reflect within you, and come into a conclusion or a self realisation of who you think you are, and what has made you who you are. At times people say, accuse, assume, spread information or tell you certain things about yourself that makes you doubt and question your moral, your integrity, your principal and your values. And they try to place their beliefs and values onto you, and this may happen as they come into awareness of themselves through you. Through the energy you carry that are naturally triggering other people to self-reflect and put out those words that may confuse you, when you are clear of who you are and who you are not. You are able to discern the words people say and not let the words distract or confuse your entire being.

“How People Perceive You Without Knowing You Is A Reflection Of Their Own Enigma,” Meredith Mynrose

Let me adjust your perspective here, some people could usually do as above, but after a situation of negativity, shock or trauma, they tend to doubt themselves and let the words from their toxic environment enter and drown their mind and they are unable to resurrect themselves and they battle mental health and mental distress. So even a strong healthy person can sometimes struggle with letting or not letting other people get to them via words and how other people treat them. Sometimes we are sensitive from some situations and we cannot generally keep our guards up and protect ourselves from toxic people who just waits on a vulnerable moment to pounce on you and put you down. So if this is you, where you were once vulnerable and you let someone else’s negative energy drown your healthy mind into toxicity. I hope this article help you find some relief and healing. So you may carry a productive energy into this year of 2020.

I Know Who I Am And I Know Who I Am Not.
When I was younger, I was so sure of myself and putting my guard up and reading people’s intention was so much easier when you were a wallflower and you grew up not getting as much attention as your peers. You tend to read people easier, you tend to gauge people’s intention and keep them at arms length or away from you. But as you grow out of high school, going to college and even growing into the work force. People tend to have many more layers in their personality. Some take up a notch so they manoeuvre their personalities as a survival mechanism in order to get what they want, they portray a personality that people generally trust and put blind faith in. But usually these are the ones that are vindictive, hurtful, abusive people. They are the ones who needs to be admired and adored but cannot take it when another person naturally attracts attention for their healthy good values and qualities.

Sometimes we cannot run away from people who wears many layers of mask and personalities and shift their chameleon faces in order to reel us in and take us by surprise or shock and in any desperate attempts to gain our faith so they have access to our wellbeing, status, financial background, social network and others. This really fucks us up when we recognise how evil certain people could be. The reason why moving on from toxic people is very hazardous and beyond imaginable pain is due to the fact that they intoxicate our very spirit. They enter into the deepest core of our mind and divert our survival mechanism into serving their every greedy desire to the detriment of your physical health, emotional wellbeing, and mental capacity.

They Make Us Put Our Pursuit to Personal Happiness At The Back Row of Our Life and Instead They Reprogram Our Entire Being To Serve Their Agenda With our Obsolete Knowledge. They Groom Us To Ask Them For The Permission To Be Happy and Worthy. As They Rearrange Our Life Priority To Be Subservient To Their Needs.

It took a lot of effort to get to the mental state I am right now especially since I have recently personally endure a great loss in life. Despite so, I still think that every journey I take and every journey I advance and conquered there is a lesson to be shared, so I help others up, from going through situations others are still suffering, suffocating and struggling in.

What You Don’t Want To Do

There are people in this world who would manipulate someone in doing something they don’t want to do. They terrorise this person’s freewill through constant pity ploy, sympathy, tugging on their heart strings of empathy, and using righteousness, guilt, playing the victim of life’s misfortune. They cannot accept the answer “No.” They say whatever need saying in order to get a “Yes.” They create suckers to their lies. Relentless, desperate pursuit to take someone’s life as their own. They destroy anyone in their way to their journey of chasing blessings that belong to others. They pour nightmare into innocent people’s lives just to gain that piece of wealth, property, project, business, recognition, social acceptance. So if somehow you have found yourself in the midst of this situation. Know that you are specially blessed and you are going to find the strength and resilience to become more knowledgable on who you really are and who you really are not. What you really want to do and what you really don’t want to do.

Anchoring Your Heart’s True Desire back into The Part of Your Mind that serves your Individual Purpose. Respecting Your Body Ability, Personal Capability, Heart’s Desire, Emotional Interest, Mental Attraction, Respecting Who You Are Means to allow yourself to recognise if it pleases you to do something, or irritates you to your core to do something, especially when being influenced, tricked, pulled, begged, coerced, forced, oppressed to do something that your body honestly feels trapped, triggered, controlled by another person rather than you. Looking into yourself to check and see if you wish to do so, to check if you had a choice or a freewill or the freedom to make a decision, was hijacked by the abusive toxic person who is trying to control you, who you are, your mind, your interest, your heart’s desire.

One word we can sum up the above is “Being Disrespected and Having Your Choices Taken Away From You.”

Toxic people will stop you from being in charge of who you are. And that is how certain people will struggle with knowing who they are and what they want after being discarded or left by the toxic humans, devil incarnate. Their mind was ransacked by someone so disrespectful and so intrusive, their charming pleasing nature was just a mask to welcome innocent people to enter their version of hell on earth. Because allowing them to enter to nurture your spirit with false kindness was selling your soul fragments to the devil within their inner shadows, slowly they influence you to be the worst version of yourself and open up old wounds you have healed like a pandora box. They hide the key, they hide your wisdom, they hide the genuine loving caring voices you built and nurtured. They lock your true voice and intuition and they replace your true voice with the sabotaging, critical, paranoid, negative, pessimistic voice.

Knowing Who You Are Is Knowing Your True and Real Voice and Sacking The Annoying Pessimistic Voice Inside Your Consciousness. The Devil’s Whisper.

Mental Territory. Mental Boundary. Mental Defense.

Let’s talk about Mental Defense. When was the last time you consciously defended your mind from obtrusive questions. When was the last time you got insulted with certain assumption, question, accusation. And how did you defend your mind from the hard hitting negativity.

Acknowledging a mental boundary where there is an invisible line crossed based on disrespect and intrusion of your privacy. The healthy barriers in your mind were terrorised with a hugely disrespectful toxic human. In other words insolent and brash as well.

Healthy Barriers of your Mind.

Part of the struggling in mental health decline is that so much shock, trauma, mental wound is unspoken, and unaddressed. Knowing who you are requires a Healthy Mental Barrier. People who struggled with mental health and suffers C-PTSD and other types of mental illness. Has deteriorating mental barrier where they are unable to contain certain aspect of their life and themselves in proper mental compartments. Because mental abuse is real, its hardest thing to heal.

If you were ever with someone and suddenly you just felt like your head and mind felt off and trying to shake the negativity and heaviness away. It could be that the presence of that individual was weathering a mental storm that affected their surrounding and yourself.

Knowing who you are requires you to build the foundation of yourself. In order to do that. The Basic Individuality of who you are needs to already be clear and present. But how could you be mentally healthy when your mind’s basic individuality was terrorised by a toxic human who was utilising you as a personal servant to their personal agenda. Dismissing every individuality that you were born with in order to make space for another host human life. In this case, your individuality was sacrificed for the human parasite living off of your life. They terrorise your basic human existence.

People who suffered severe mental depression, they are unable to make clear discernment on the real truth, but when they get the opportunity to process the trauma or shock with someone who can guide them in a healing session or therapy they get to put their experience into perspectives. This allows them to arrange the emotions that was turbulent to keep because they were unable to find clarity. Clearing negative life experience helps to clear the weight pressuring the mental health of that individual. It eases their mental stress and assists to lead better quality of life.

Having a Healthy Mental Territory changes the entire game in your life’s existence. Its like having a working fence to keep out things that isn’t welcomed. Imagine having a farm with a durable, reliable, working fence that keeps good things in and bad things out. Having a healthy mental territory allows the harmonious flow of your life to increase the quality of your life. Everything works well, life is just peachy.

How to achieve or get this “Healthy Mental Territory”?

It depends. Some adults grow up in a stable childhood where they get to be raised in a healthy mental territory. And some adults who grew up in an unstable childhood, they never got the chance to have this healthy mental territory hence they struggle with having a life they desire and can maintain and build into their personal joy and happiness. They grow up with more mental toxicity than other adults who were raised in a stable and safe home. There are some adults who had healthy mental territory but their mind was ransacked and vandalised by toxic people pretending to be kind individuals and befriend them under false intention. Then their healthy mental territory was vandalised and destroyed by this fake toxic people. Then they struggle to function with healthy mental territory which affects their livelihood and quality of wellbeing.

There are two parts we can begin with this. Healing Childhood Trauma and Healing Adult Life Trauma. Some mental trauma occurs in childhood and repeats as a life cycle of negative patterns. Some other mental trauma happens as an adult later in their life and repeats as a self sabotaging quality that deprecates.

Mental Boundary means to be in control of how the trauma affects your mind, emotion, body and nervous system and entire psychological being. It means to be aware of your response to the external events and people. Mental boundary means to be grounded in the present moment that you can review your healthy mental territory and utilize your mental defense when required and as needed on the spot. This is your healthy survival mechanism that was shut down, hidden, intimidated, oppressed by each individual who has disrespected and abused you into mental health decline and affecting your quality of life. Achieving a control of your mental boundary is you sitting on top of your mental freedom and freewill to direct where your mind expresses itself. In shorter words, you are in control of how your mind is affected by disrespect and abuse to the best of your wellbeing. Its your ability to recognise abuse and to respond quickly to defend yourself from being mentally abused and so forth.

With a very active Mental Boundary you get to experience knowing who you are, and knowing who you are not. Because you were able to become alert of the healthy mental territory you need to uphold and at the same time you could defend your mind by being aware that you can kick Mental Defense into gear to stop the negative influence of your environment and people in it. Mental boundary allows you to be pro-active in taking care of yourself and your life, from danger, harm, manipulation, malicious intent, and keep toxic people further than at arms length. When you know who you are not, and you are in charge of your mental boundary, defense and territory, when someone expects you to do something that is not aligned to who you are. You get to quickly trigger survival mechanism to defend your mind, heart, identity and personality and wellbeing, to block that person from using you for their benefit. You don’t give them the time of day and the benefit of a doubt. You quickly just brush them off and ignore their appeal and approach to you, whichever way they attempt to get close.

And by knowing who you are, you get to choose the people who you respect and admire and surround yourself with. And you will recognise the people who isn’t like you, who respects the same values in life and who has the same principal in life they uphold. Wether they have similar integrity, strength and beliefs, you will find harmony in knowing that you have choices when it comes to allowing people to get close and associate to you. People cannot just offer themselves to be your close friends and confidante. This is utterly important and utterly your choice which isn’t something you should give this decision to toxic people to make. As they can enter your life and start telling you what you should and should not do. This shows their desire to control you instead of respecting you. That you should let them be your best friend, sister, client, mentor, partner, colleague etc. This is a huge red flag which should be taken as serious as an earthquake warning. Because they will leave you in ruins.

All the bad experiences you have socialising in your life as an adult, that may cause you to doubt yourself and who you are. The experiences that have made you traumatised and shocked, take that experiences as a bitter pill of life that fuels you to be more authentic and know more of the power you make in your life daily with a strong healthy mind. I hope with this article, and learning about how to get to know yourself a little bit more, you allow you to move on from your past easier. But now I am so sure that you know a little bit more of who you are and who you are not. If not, you are welcome to have a Universal Healing session with me and we will work together in helping you heal and get your mental health in a much better condition. I wish that your new year of 2020 will be sweet, memorable, a year of encouraging bodacious vibes of love and light.

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Love, Light, Blessings
Meredith Mynrose
Universal Healer & Peace Visionary

Published by meredithmynrose

I am a Universal Healer, Life Coach and Peace Visionary. Welcome to my blog where I share tips on energy healing, articles of personal development and sharing my wisdom and experiences to build a peaceful and powerful community in this planet one small neighbourhood at a time. Follow my youtube channel : AndromedaLoveStory

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